The picture above is of me in the summer of 2001. I was about 25-30 lbs. heavier than I am today. The next sentence is NOT to get comments like “you look great now!”, etc. When I look in the mirror…I still see that body above with about another 5-10 lbs. added on to it. But it’s not something I obsess about…I don’t crash-diet, I’m not exercising every minute – heck, I’m completely out of shape right now, but I do still eat rather healthy. However, my mind always sees others as skinnier, more fit, etc. That’s what I focus on. Can I blame society and media? Sure. But I have to start with owning my own thoughts. And Amber helped with this.
One of the very first posts I ever wrote was about weight…my weight. Now today’s post isn’t exactly about my weight loss experience, but rather about body image in general and our society’s view of being thin and what we can do about it.
So now you have to leave me and go and read Amber‘s recent posts – I Judge You, To Judge Myself which will lead you to You Can Never Be Too Rich or Too Thin? Screw That.
Amber is not alone. I know she’s not because I could totally relate. I could have written some of her sentences – particularly the ones where she describes what happens in her mind when she meets someone. I’ve gotten better as I’ve aged and had children etc. but I’m still guilty of sizing up…true confession…judgy judgy me. But I do it for the exact same reason – to determine why someone wouldn’t want to be bothered with me.
Go out and support groups like Girls on the Run. Be interested in things like the Naked Face Project. Make a difference by loving yourself and not by focusing on a mental math equation that makes no sense to your self worth. I’m working on it with every new person I meet.